Momentary Lapse of Reason
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This next poem puts it all in a nutshell for me. I remember being a kid and I had so many hopes and dreams. I wanted a big family, a good husband, a nice life. I laugh as I just didn't have a clue what lay instore for me. It's taken a long time for me to come to terms with letting go of that little girl. It was a struggle but it's been part of my journey, part of my healing. I always felt I'd let her down somehow... Crazy I know, but I've always been so good at cutting things off. Whether people, situations or emotions. It's easier that way isn't it? Anyway, here is my poem 'Momentary Lapse Of Reason.'
Momentary lapse of reason
Tears of sorrow
Face stained with grief
Big spot on my nose
And my bright yellow teeth
I sit and wonder if id gone
Down a different road
If things would’ve been different
If I had married a toad
I feel something
And I don’t understand
Why my life is so full of disappointment
It is not how I had planned
I wanted the fairytale
All ribbons and bows
I wanted diamond rings on my fingers
And nine carat bells on my toes
I have dreamt of prince charming
I long to get to know him
To live out my perfect fantasy
(oops now that’s a different poem)
I wonder how I got here
A world away from my wonderland
It never ceases to amaze me
How it had been taken out of my hands
But one thing I am blessed with
As I am in my own incarceration
Is a pen and piece of paper
And my over active imagination.